Grateful

My daughter had to take a pretty big test for her nursing career called the NCLEX and it's been somewhat of a struggle but on Monday she felt very good when she finished her test and it cut her off at 85 questions which is a good sign: She had called me while I was in Hobby Lobby (love that store) and as I was getting into my car to go pick her up this song I never recognized came on my spotify (wasn't on my playlist) entitled "So Much" by Life Church Worship and it was talking about being so grateful for all that God has done. I really felt he was going to answer our prayer for her to pass and I just found out my loved one whom we have been praying for over hisg heart condition was finally going to be released from the hospital and able to go to a local rehab which is a HUGE answer to prayer! We found out the next day that she had passed her test and my loved one was transferred to the rehab facility! I felt such a BIG weight has been lifted as it has been pretty stressful! The next day (today) I was sitting trying to go over what I was going to lead at upcoming bible study this Thursday night I prayed to the Lord to direct me in what he wanted me to talk about and we left off talking about waiting but I felt like he wanted me to expand and to give testimony about what I had just been through with the 2 sitiuations. I turn in my prayer journal and it said "Patience is not about waiting- it's the ablity to keep a good attitude while working hard for what you believe in. It's the willingness to stay focused, confidently taking one small step after the next, knowing that the way you move a mountain is by moving one stone at a time- every stone you move, no matter how small is progress." Wow!!! So I then proceed to look up patient verses in the bible and write them down and then what songs to correlate with being patient and the song "Trust" by Lauren Daigle comes on which is the song my daughter who just passed her test sang when she was in 7th grade at a middle school talent show...who would have thought that song would really mean so much years later..I literally wept. It was very overwhelming... No matter what trial you are facing it's important to keep your focus on the Lord, to wait, to trust in him at all times and he will see you through! He may not answer in the way you are expecting or like but know he has best intrest at heart and sometimes we may not understand at the time but it might be revealed later!

3 bible verses

This morning I woke up early as my heart is heavy with what is going on with my family member (in hospital with aortic valve leak that is causing congestive heart failure and has inflammation in lungs, bacteria in blood stream from infected port which in turn caused endocarditis and state 2 lymphoma). I felt God leading me back in his word as I haven't been consistent with it..there really is no excuse so I'm not even going to try to say why I haven't been but it's at least been a month or so. I opened Jesus calling and it was talking about holding onto his hand and staying focused on his presence no matter what ...I then opened my daily reading bible and happened to be on Psalm 91 which was prayed over my mom before Jesus came and healed her..I then opened My Joyce Meyer devotion and John 16:33 just happened to be on today's devotion : "In this world you will have trouble but take heart, I've overcome the world"..Then I flip to the other devotion in the book on other side and it was Psalm 23 which was "he leadeth me beside still waters..". That was the verse at the hospital when my mom was very sick. Those 3 were the top 3 verses I relied on heavily when mom was in the hospital in 2009. I know my God can heal him but I don't know if it will be on this side of heaven or the other side: I pray his will be done always but that's a hard prayer to pray especially when it might not go "my way"..I have to submit to him as he knows the plans he has for us and I know he knows better and I know Heaven is a great place and I'm sure it's much better than here as there is no more weeping etc...but the human nature of me wants to keep him here on earth /to be able to see his grandkids graduate as he has told me (in the flesh)..I desire that for him so maybe that's why I'm hanging on to him so tight that I can't let go even though I need to. I know God is with us through this highly demonstrated by what just happened during my devotional time..he's funny that way ..and he's such a GREAT GREAT GREAT God...I love him soooo much no matter what happens...I was talking to a friend yesterday and she said "This world is not our home"..and that's very true..we are all going home it's just a matter of when. For now I will focus on him and his will for our lives and be ready when he calls us all home!

His presence

Last month I was on my way for a lumpectomy and possible cancer dx and was on the way for it and I got behind this car and it said "life is good" on the back of their jeep. I was way overcome as that was my dads favorite saying..I really felt it was like my dad and God saying "I'm here, it will all be ok". I went through the lumpectomy without complications and NO Cancer!!! Sooo very thankful. The other day one of my family members has been going through some very serious health issues and I thought to myself "I can't do this again" as it was very similar to what happened with my dad right before he died unexpectedly in 2018..shock and then heart attack and organ shut down. I looked down at my watch as I'm heading to the hospital not really knowing what we will find /basically bracing myself for the unexpected. I saw my watch has 33 percent battery left and it said I have 333 intensity minutes. As you may have read 333 is the number he bascially shows to me to remind me of his presence. I felt so much better as it put my focus back on him as I was trying to take control of the situation and I needed to give it all back to God. You see what happened to my dad I never want to happen again as I feel things were missed not necessarily by me but in general and I feel a lot of it could have been prevented..so what happened with him has made me a better nurse and maybe a little bit more overprotective and I don't want anything to get past me. I'm so thankful my loved one was able to get to the hospital and get the help he needed in a very timely fashion so other bad things were prevented and he's feeling much better! Praise God!!! Today's sermon was about his presence and studying Jeremiah 29 "for I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord..."...It was the verse on my emmaus walk and so it is sentimental: He talked about planting a garden in what God has given us and even in the valley we continue as he is with us and he will get us through. We live in a fallen world and it will not be perfect till we get to heaven. In the meantime he's with us through it all : the good and the bad. You can go on crosspoint nicevilles website to listen to it from the message today 8/2/2026. I'm reminded of the song "His presence" which I played before my dad passed. It truly is all about him and His presence and His will ..it's in the Lord's prayer.."your will be done"...It's hard sometimes as I said before to try to take control but we need to realize He's in control and we really aren't..we can do our part but the rest is in his hands..I'm so thankful for this. Thank you Lord for your presence..You alone deserve all the Glory, Praise as the song we sang today at end of church. Something pastor also said was very profound..he said he was preparing for his father's funeral and his son's wedding at the same time and he felt through his grief of both he felt gratitude of being the son of so and so and the dad of so and so..It was very powerful. I'm also so very grateful to be the daughter of my father and the mom of my 3 beautiful children and for Jesus most of all!

Grateful

I had a difficult day yesterday and was thinking negative as I was trying to find the "positive" in my life as there have been multiple things that have been negative lately : I won't list them here but trust me when I say I feel like I have been unusually inindated with negative circumstances happening a lot around me or too me directly. I went to breakfast with one of my dear friends and we were able to vent and also encourage each other through our circumstances and I told her we need to change our way of thinking and "battlefield of the mind" by Joyce Meyer came up in converstation as well as finding things to be grateful for. She long ago bought me a cup that says "grateful" on it right before my dad died and I have it to this day. I tell her it reminds me of things to be grateful for instead of dwelling on my current set of circumstances. As we were leaving we were just browsing the coffee shop and there was a little sign that said "Be grateful" with a heart on it. A God wink. Later that evening I went to bible study and the fist half was about Science in the Bible taught by one of my spiritual mentors. Very good and then his Granddaughters took over the remainder of the class and they said we are going to teach on the power of what we think ...What?? Phillipians 4: 8 teaches us on what we should be thinking about : "Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things..". Wow! God is always awesome in his timing!! This morning I realized I didn't do my devotional or bible readying yesterday and I reread yesterdays Jesus calling for today and it was about Gratitude!!! It starts out saying " Let thankfulness temper all your thoughts...WOW!!!!! It quotes scriptures from 1Cor 10:10 and Hebrews 12: 28-29. I then read today's devotion and it was about waiting ..which I have felt like I've been in this waiting season since Nov of last year..it's just an ongoing waiting pattern: The devotion from today starts out as "Waiting on me means directing your attention to me in hopeful anticipation of what I will do." I will admit that waiting can be very very difficult at times : I could list right now a huge list of things I'm waiting for..but it's what we do in the waiting that matters..I know it would be so nice if God answered our prayers right away but I feel if he did that we wouldn't depend on him as much as we do and he wants us to be drawn closer to him and be renewed through the waiting and be strenthened by his strength and not ours. He wants us to Glorify him in deep dependendece on him and be ready to do his will whatever that is and to be in his presence in fullness of his Joy! I know it's hard at times but It's really a change of the mindset and a redirecton of our thoughts to focus on him and to spend time with him during this process. He is always faithful so we should live Grateful!!!

3 blood moons

Today as I was getting ready for church I read a blog entitled "Wake up" and in it it said during Lent Sunday's are not considered in the fast as it's considered a feast day: meaning you can take a break from the fast only on Sunday's and not counted as the 40 days of fasting. Not sure how I never knew that but maybe I did and never took a break from the fast during lent. I gave up social media this year for lent. So I decided to go on Tik Tok briefly just to see if there was anything intresting. This girl randomly shows up on my feed and starts talking about this dream that the Lord had given her concerning end times and Esther and Purim etc. She then posted a screenshot of someone she follows and instantly I briefly saw the number 333..so I rewinded the video and screenshotted it so I can look at it closer and it showed 3 blood moons each occuring on Purim (first one in 2024, second in 2025 and third in 2026) The third one will occur this year on 3-3 of 2026 and will Peak at 333am Pacific Standard Time. WHAT???? This is sooooooooo amazing thinking of the things he shows us especially concerning numbers and HIS TIMING...(read my previous post for more info). Also the next tetrad of blood moons is not scheduled to come till 2033 which is 7 years from now...intresting..Also another side note is Trump gave Iran 10 days to respond which is around the time the eclipse will be happening. Not saying this is the start of the GREAT Tribulation...but it very well could. The lord does give us signs in the sky: Here is scripture to support: Luke 21: 25-26 Joel 2:30-31 Acts 2:19-20 Matthew 24:29-30 Genesis 1:14 Revelation 6: 12-13 I just got done reading about theomatics which is basically the study of numbers and how the relate in scripture based on the Hebrew and Greek lanaguage. I was particuarlly intrested in the number 33 and where that showed up in the different verses in scripture and here are a few that was revealed to me: Their eyes were opened 100x33 Hands upon the eyes 100x 33 and that those who may see may become blind 100x33 Clouds of Heaven 100x 33 Glory of Christ 100x33 If anyone would like to read the book it's called "Theomatics" by Jerry lucas and Del Washburn. Highly recommend.. My friend Larry was the one who let me borrow it as his granddaughter was talking to me a few weeks ago how she sees the number 333 all the time and had no idea that's what God shows me so I was so excited to find another person that God shows that number to and then Mr larry overheard and says ohh well then you would love this book.. I do feel God is always revealing himself by nature (sun,moon,stars,clouds, etc) or though other people and most importantly through his Word. We need to be ready no matter what as he states that NO one knows the day or the hour but I do feel he gives us signs to reveal himself or things that are and that are going to take place..so be READY!!!

Abiding in the waiting

Currently my bible study is doing a bible study on "Abide" which focuses on 1John in the bible. Also in my current season of life I have been in a "waiting" period for certain things to be answered. My daughter Ashley had a kidney infection back in Nov and was still showing some protein in her urine so the Dr wanted to order a Kidney biopsy to see why as a precaution. It was hard waiting for the test results and even waiting while she was undergoing her biopsy. At the same time I got a call that no one ever wants to get that stated my mammogram was "abnormal" and I needed further testing..the first test would be an ultrasound to look at the spot they found. My anxiety started to increase but during this time I felt God was with me and I kept my focus on him even though there were so many "distractions " of life to try to keep my eyes off of him. Around this same time I went to see my cardiologist for my yearly appt and he asked if I had any issues recently and I told him I had an episode of where my heart felt like it flipped in my chest and last a few min. He then ordered a 14 day holter monitor as well as an echocardiogram to check the heart as I had been previously dx in 2016 with a pfo in my heart (hold in between the atria) but was just told to monitor .. I had the echo test with bubble study a few days later and as I was driving home I had a change in my vision which lasted a few min and was told by online sources that this is normal or could happen with those with pfo..i told my cardiologist and he instantly wanted me to start taking eliquist which I know as a nurse is a very strong blood thinner. I was upset going on it as it meant I would have to give up certain supplements and risk of bleeding increases. He also ordered me to have a TEE (where they go down your throat during sedation to get a closer look at heart). This alone is a scary thought as I was fearful of being awake during it and just the thought of having a tube down the throat isn't pleasant to think about. On the day of the ultrasound I was driving and listening to my spotify and had it on random shuffle and a song came on about praising the Lord and I felt great after listening to it and then I went in and checked into my appt and sat down and the same song started playing on the overhead!!! It was like God saying "I'm here, I got you, no need to worry"..I felt confident and at peace and even the ladies in the exam room were astonished when I recieved the news that I would now need a biopsy to make sure this spot is not the C word..They said " you handled those results amazingly well"..I told them " I have a strong faith system"..They were like "Yes, that is very important"...I did feel his peace in a great way but as I'm going through life the worry and the doubt start creeping in and I just want to know asap that I don't have the c word and that I won't have to give up my job as a nurse and I don't have to take such bad drugs to get rid of it etc...the mind just went but I knew that this is from Satan and so I turned to God's word to have it speak life and peace into and his love...It's always amazing what his word does each and every time as it really is living and active..I love the following verses 1. 2Cor 10:5: "We demolish arguements and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thgought to make it obedient to Christ.. 2.Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.. 3. Psalm 23 4: Psalm 46:10 "Be still and know that I am God" 4. Psalm 91 5: John 16: 33 "In this world you will have trouble but take heart I've overcome the World" 6: Phillipians 4: 6-8 A few days after the ultrasound I had the TEE procedure and everything went smoothly..while I was there I looked up in my room and there was a rainbow on the cieling and then I looked at the tv in front of me in the same room and there was a rainbow reflecting on the Tv!!! See previous blog about rainbows but God likes to show me rainbows to let me know he's here with me. I had to wait for that result as well which showed I do have a small hole that will not need repair at this time as it would cause more harm than good and in meantime will keep me on thinners which I will follow up with cardiology about this upcoming week.

In the waiting we have choices to make..you can let the fear and doubts continue to overtake or you can cling to his garment by reading his word and going to him in prayer, and listening to praise music, and attending christian community (church, bible study).. I felt him beckoning me to open up my surrender book which i've purchased awhile ago from a lady that came and spoke at our church..I felt I was holding on to things I need to let go of such as my "fear of the unknown" being a huge one and "control" being a BIG one..This is still a work in progress and it is a constant surrender DAILY...It's so easy to get overwhelmed and to pick it right back up after you let it go thats why its a continuous process.. The day came for my biopsy and I was driving there yet again this time with my mom in the car and we had "Elevation Worship" playlist on at the time but then it started playing Chris Tomlin "Holy Forever"..(which is not on the playlist by the way)..I just went with it and thought well maybe God is overtaking my radio..which he has done before...we pulled in and checked in to my appt and sat down and what song starts playing on the overhead! Holy Forever by Chris Tomlin!!! I was so excited and knew it was from the Lord showing me yet again that he is with me and all will be ok NO MATTER the outcome..I went in with such peace that really does surpass all understanding and after NO PAIN...they all said again it was amazing how calm I was during the procedure and after.. During this waiting period awaiting important results I was driving over the bridge and God said to entitle the testimony of what I was going through "Abide in the waiting" ..wow. Since I'm currently doing the study Abide and I'm in a waiting seasion..hence the title of this blog. During the waiting periods of life especially the difficult waiting ..I feel like i'm desperate to hear a word from the Lord or just really in tune with what he's trying to tell me through his word or music..the Christian music just really speaks to me more so than ever in the hard seasons of life.. I listen to Destiny worship on Sundays before I go attend my home church and one of the sermons just happened to be on "waiting"..it talked about the bleeding woman who had been bleeding for 12 years but she touched the hem of Jesus's garment and she was healed! The pastor also mentioned John 16:33 (see above) and those 2 bible stories/verses were what God gave me when He had healed my mom in 2009! I really felt he was reminding me of her healing and that he is more than capable of healing me and my daughter and to just trust him..and even if he was going to allow me to walk through sickness he would still be there beside me..either way Jesus has already won when he went to calvary and died on the cross for all of our sins! I found out on thursday at bible study that Ashley's biopsy result on her kidney was perfectly normal!!! She had a follow up yesterday with her nephrologist and they believe the protein was stress induced since she is under a lot of stress at college..I then got an email the next day saying I had test results in my patient portal and logged in and my biopsy is also normal! Sooooo very very thankful! This whole process of waiting has taught me to not take each day for granted and to truly live each day in true gratitude !!! We are not promised tomorrow so we should live each day to the fullest and to keep our eyes on Jesus who will see us through no matter what!! He will never leave us nor forsake us. Life is about waiting..waiting in line, waiting to be served, waiting for test results, waiting to grow older, waiting for the healing, waiting for a loved one to come back to God, waiting to go home from a job, waiting to get a job, waiting to see if you pass a test.. lots and lots of waiting..but it's what we do in the waiting is what matters..how you control your mind and what you allow yourself to focus on is important..I've learned I'm refined/renewed and drawn closer to God through the waiting..and for that I"m truly grateful.

Spiritual warfare

Two weeks ago white count of 31 and nephritis (kidney infection). I then proceeded to drive to Tallahassee to be with her and on the way there a deer decided to jump out in front of my car..at first I continued to drive as I thought it probably didn't do too much damage and my goal was to get to Tallahassee. I then thought I better check the car so I did and it was smoking some in front and the front bumper was hanging off. I then prayed I would have reception as it was out in the middle of nowhere. I was able to get reception which I was very grateful for and was able to call my husband as well as the tow truck which was a nightmare since he was trying to ping my location but due to some limited reception was very difficult. I was able to borrow my Father in laws car and make it safely to Tallahassee (I did end up doing about 10,000) in damage to the car. My daughter continued to get better over the next few days (She was able to get IV antibiotics and white count dropped from 31-28-15-10. While she was in the hospital my Sister in law took me out to dinner and while we were waiting for our food the waitress comes over and asks if she drove a certain car and she said yes and she said she had bad news as someone rear ended her in parking lot. I thought ok well it's probably not that bad but I was wrong. The whole back bumper was off and did about 2500 dollars in damge. I then had to call my Brother in law to come get me to take me back to hospital as the car was not driveable. I then really felt like I was under major spiritual attack as I also found out my Aunt was very sick with sepsis as well with double lung pneumonia and on the ventilator ( she eventually was weaned off and placed on hospice ) and just yesterday went to be with the Lord. It's very sad as my uncle (her husband) just died almost 2 months ago with cancer. I then told Ashley while we were still in the hospital that we needed to go to prayer and rebuke the devil. So we did and that's when things started to improve with her white count (went from 28 to 15!). We were able to be discharged on the 4th day and they switched her to Oral antibiotics and now is completely healed! I then taught at Mary night (a time to come together at Jesus's feet) on spiritual warfare /armor of God (Ephesians 6) on that same week and I originally was going to teach it in June but then we took off for a few months so his timing truly was perfect. Also that Sunday the message was on Ephesisans 6. Well then this morning I felt the Holy Spirit convey to me that I'm too busy and need to slow down to spend time wiht him and I felt a little short of breath on way to church as my other daughter told me today she felt feverish etc..and I'm so tired of all the sickness etc..I felt the anxiety creeping in..and I also told my family I felt we were under attack again..I went to church this morning and Hannah preached on 1 peter 5 about "casting all your anxieties on him because he cares for you... the devil prowls around like a roaring lion seeking someone to devour"...WOW!!!!!!!!!! I really felt that message was directed right at me...She then also talked about being busy and how we need to spend more time with God!!! She also mentioned Peter and how he denied Christ 3 times..and this morning I was showing Ryan my son some photos that popped up on my memories when I had gone to Israel in 2017 and the pic was of where Peter denied Christ 3 times!!!! It truly is amazing that all 4 of her sermon points was exactly what happened this morning...God really is amazing!

Hand in cloud

MY mom recently visited Sedona Arizona and stayed at a place called the butterfly house and woke up one morning and saw a rainbow!!! She then went ti this chapel in the mountain and took a pic of the chapel outside and lokked through her pics later and saw a hand in the sky to the right of the chapel!!! Its truly amazing !!! Ill try to post a photo later of it! Internet is being weird.

Eagle

I went to the cabin a few days ago up in SC and it was amazing as always. I always enjoy going to the little white church in the mountain (Rocky Bottom Baptist Church) as I feel there's always a message from God when I go and I really feel the power of the Holy Spirit in that church! Before I went to church the previous week I was watching a testimony from a 14 year old girl that was posted on Tic Tock and she said she had died (car got hit by semi) and she went up to to heaven and God was showing her people on their screens and he wanted her to come back to earth to warn people to not be on their devices so people can hear from him..and that there were too many distractions. So we went to church this past Sunday at the little white church in the mountain and we caught the last 10 min of Sunday School and Jonathen was preaching and stating that we live in a world where there are a lot of distractions and how we can't hear from God because we are too distracted especially by our phones/tablets..WOW!!!!! I was really overcome and wiping tears from my eyes and my son said "Are you sad?" and I said "No, just overcome by the Holy Spirit." God's timing is always perfect. It truly is convicting to get off our devices and really spend time with God. I did bring a tablet to the cabin so Ryan could play games or watch a movie but the charger was broke so It wouldn't charge..then I tried watching tv but it wouldn't work either..(this was before I heard the message). Just goes to show that we can still have fun without the tablet /screens ..we played outside and threw rocks in the stream, enjoyed nature, caught fire flies, worked on a puzzle, played games and went exploring. It was truly amazing.. On Sunday Night we decided to go up to the tallest mountain in SC and it borders NC as well so it's a pretty good overlook..I did ask God to show me a sign of some sort whether it was a rainbow or some other thing he wanted to show me..so we are standing there looking around and there was this big eagle cloud so I took a pic of it and then I looked at how it turned out ..on closer inspection I could see lettering that looked like the word fear above the eagle and then under that looked like Jesus's face, and the the right of that looked like a smiley face and the word sooo good 25. under the rt wing looked like the word "rest" and then up on top left corner of pic the word "Pray". Wow...I'm reminded that we need to Rest and spend time with him , to Pray at all times (pray without ceasing" and to not be distracted by other things that take our attention away from what truly matters which is HIM!!! And to have NO Fear..Perfect love casts out all fear! Also reminded of the verse in Isaiah 40:31 " But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength: they shall mount with with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint". On Monday we went to the this cute health food store in SC and while there this man sits across from us while we were eating and he had an American flag shirt with an Eagle and a cross underneath it! My mom said "I'm going to go talk to him and tell him I like his shirt". So she approached him and told him that and he was so happy and he said "Well, I have a testimony to share with you..a few years ago my kidneys shut down and I woke up 6 days later and God had healed me"...Then mom said "I also have a testimony to share with you"..and she preceded to tell him how God had healed her in 2009 after her hysterecomy (see previous blog post) ..It was soooo amazing how God placed us at the right time to have this encounter..it truly was a God thing and his timing is Always perfect!

Walk to Emmaus

On Thursday this past week I was getting ready in the morning and thinking of taking my friend up to Blue lake that afternoon for her walk to Emmaus..Walk to Emmaus is a spiritual retreat for 4 days and it's a time to grow closer to God ..I haven't been to Emmaus in 7 years since it reminded me of my father as he used to go up and help and was very involved and there were too many memories (good but difficult if you know what I mean)...I was thinking /praying about if God was going to reveal to me a rainbow as he showed one to me on before my walk in 2012 (over my house) and then a little rainbow cloud on my dad's walk (2013)and then a big rainbow over the Gator Cafe before my mom's walk (in 2013). Well when I got to bible study on Thursday Jen had earrings I had gifted her and she said she wanted to wear them since I was sponsoring her and they are rainbow colors!Jen also had a shirt on with a heart on front and on the back talks about how God loves us.. We then started listening the video from the bible study "Luke in the Land"..we were on the last day about the Gospel of Luke in Israel and how she went to different sites which brought me back to the time I was in Israel myself in 2017. It really is a powerful bible study..so she said and for the last site we are going to the "Road to Emmaus"..what??? I was instantly overcome by the Holy Spirit where I felt warm all over and was just crying not out of sadness but how GREAT our God is and the signs he is ALWAYS giving...It's kinda like the 2 on the road to Emmaus where they met Jesus but failed to recognize him but then their eyes were opened!!! We then went to Blue Lake that afternoon completly filled with the Spirit and when I got there a sea of memories came flooding back in a good way..Jen happened to know the check in guy whom was her boss in the AF at one time ...and then I was just standing there and A guy said "Hey i'm so and so and I knew your dad...we worked together at Hurlburt Field and I also was at your wedding...". WOW...Him and his wife were sponsoring a girl that happened to be Jen's roommmate!! I also got to see a girl I haven't seen in foreever..probably about 7 years that was on my walk so many years ago..It truly all was such a blessing!

Lutheran school

I took care of a patient the other day in the ER and we got to talking about shift work and how many kids we have etc..I told him about Ryan how I'm taking him out of public school and putting him in private school either at the lutheran school or another Christian school in town and he said "Well, You are in the right room"...he then went on to say that he used to be a principal at a Lutheran School in Chicago IL and his wife taught there and that's where there children went to school!! I felt it was a confirmation from God that I'm doing the right thing taking him out of public school..and my interview for the Lutheran school happened to be the next day (which went well by the way and he got accepted so they will hold a spot till I find out if he gets accepted in the other which is later this month)...we then went on to share God stories about my mom's healing and how my father passed and how I was able to carry on my father's name etc. I also told them what happened at the ewomen conference (see previous blog) how God spoke to me about Ryan and my husband which only confirms I'm doing the right thing. So then he goes on to say his son had cancer back in 2006 and he's alive to this day and they made a nonforprofit organization called "Phil's Friends"...Phil was my dad's name...which was also his son's name..so they give these care packages to cancer patients and then send them encouraging notes every month! Here's the website if you know of anyone with cancer please pass this on: philsfriends.org. I always pray before work that God puts me where he want me and it's just amazing when you know that you know it's God working! After that shift I was on my way home and the radio was making a strange sound like going in and out and I always listen to psalm 91.1...well then all of a sudden "Thy will" come on which was the song that played after my dad passed and reminded me of when he told me "Not your will but my will be done"...It was so random as I've listened to this station alot and I haven't heard that song in foreever like 2018ish... Last week before whats called "Mary Night"..I was listening to same station and a song came on called "Life is Good" by Matthew West which I've never heard before...Life is good was always what my dad said even when life wasn't so good at the time..He was always very positive. After we had Mary night I got in the car again and it was on again!!! Such a great song..Look it up if you haven't heard it yet. God is awesome and he's always showing us stuff..I always pray my eyes and ears will be openend to what he would have to show me and I pray the same for you!

Voice from God

Yesterday I attended a women's conference that I have been attending every year for quite awhile called EWomen..It was in Pensacola and was a great time. While in Worship yesterday the Holy Spirit said "you do know the reason why your son is having focus issues is to bring him out of his current school to this other school so he can be inindated in the word of God and in turn will help bring your Husband back to Me (Christ). ..Wow...you see I've been really struggling as my son has been having attention issues in Kindergarten and was told by his preschool teacher a year before to hold him back then but I didn't want to ..I was in denial because I said well he knows his letters and numbers and is very smart and so I let him go on to kindergarten but he's still having issues paying attention..at first I thought oh it's just his age , or its a boy thing, etc..but I really feel it may be more than that like ADD although I'm not speaking that into him...I still believe the Lord can direct and heal his brain etc but I have questioned God as to why he's allowing us to walk through this and my Plan was to allow him to follow in his sister's footsteps and go to the same school etc..I literally have grieved having to leave his current school as it doesn't have too many accomadations for his focus issues and this other school will provide those things as well as give him Christian education which I like. I was able to surrender my son and my husband to God yesterday at the conference and felt a lot of peace but there was this inner part of me doubting if what I truly heard was from God. So this morning I'm listening to Destiny Worship center's message on "Discerning the Voice of God"...WHAT???? I felt he was confirming to me that it was him!!! It was probably one of the best sermons I heard in awhile and would HIGHLY encourage you to look up the message on their website! Then I went to church at Crosspoint today and it was about trusting in God! I then went to spend quiet time with God this afternoon and was in my Jesus calling devotional and something told me to reread yesterday's message and it was about listening for God's voice and How the Lord loves to delight in revealing himself..WOW!!! I've attached a pic of it so you can read it in case you don't have that devotional..God is soooooo GREAT!!!! I even shared it with my husband and he recieved it well without saying "WELL THAT"S NEVER GOING TO HAPPEN'...he's open to the idea and took it very humbly, which I appreaciate greatly. Please continue to pray as we have our interview with the new school April 24th to gain acceptance and for My husband to come back to Christ in his timing.

Upcoming Lunar Eclipse

I was reading today that we will have a lunar eclipse March 14th which is on the Jewish festival of Purim. What I didn't realize and what was revealed to me today was that we had a previous lunar eclipse last year in 2024 in March and we are expected to have another one in March in 2026...so over 3 years in March the 3rd month...Lunar eclipses in the past are significant and usually fall when there's a war..praying there are no wars but could be a sign that this is what could happen...I feel God uses a lof of things to get our attention and this is something we may need to pay attention to..no matter what happens I think it's important to keep our minds focused on God and not in the political arena..He's on his throne and in control of all things!!!

Six words

My previous blog post I posted about Disciple story and how we have to come up with 2 words that define our story ...this past week they said that I now need 6 more words on top of that to describe the 2 words...so I was somewhat struggling..I came up with some words such as encouraging, healing, praying etc but I just felt in my spirit those weren't the words to really describe "SPREADING HOPE".. Another person in my group was also struggling to come up with his words and I told him to go home and pray about it and just ask God to give him the words. So I went home and while I was in the shower God spoke in my spirit and said "Speading hope by testifying to God's miracles and revelations"...WOW....that totally defines my story and continuing to define what I do for his kingdom since that 's what this blog really is about ..writing down all that he shows me so he can be glorified and remembering all that he shows as well so I can look back and be thankful!! I also love sharing with others the things he shows me and testifying to God's healing power since I get to witness a lot of miracles through my job as a nurse and also testify about how he healed my mother all those years ago and it just gives people hope that he is who he says he is..that he truly does exist..that they can have eternal life..that he loves unconditionally and wants all to have eternal life with him. So I Hope and Pray that this blog mininsters to you as it does to me. Thankful to God for all his divine revelations and many healings!!!

HOPE

I've been wanting to take part in Disciple story at the church for awhile now.. they have offered classes and held 2 day events but the timing was never right ..then my friend posted she is taking the class starting this wednesday and I thought "I could do that!"...So I signed up and they gave me about 2 hours of prework to do which at first was intimidating but it was quite enjoyable and makes you think back on your life ..kinda like a reevaluation if you will of your top ten high points in life and top ten low points in life..For me I started when I got married until now (back in 2002). My top ten high points was getting married, the births of each of my children, my girls graduating from college, my job in the ER, and some low points were my husband's unbelief, my mom almost dying, my father died, Covid and all the crazy mandates that I had to fight (even lost my job at first but was able to get it back thanks to our Governor). So through all this I was to find one word that describes all this...well this morning I Woke up and started talking to God about it and he gave me the word "Hope"...Someone acutally called me Hope as they thought that was my name awhile ago..then my dad is buried in the section of the Cemetery called "Hope"..one of my best friends gave me a cross on Sunday with the word Hope in the center..then I got to thinking well I had Hope that my marriage would be God centered, I had hope that my mom would live and she did all thanks to GOD who healed her, I have hope that my children will graduate from college and become great nurses, I have hope that one day My husband will confess his faith in the Lord again, I have the heavenly hope that my father is in heaven looking down on me, I have hope that God will heal all those affected by Covid and the Vaccine..and I could go on but I won't...I also was told the word "fair"..as that's what my name really means "fair one". I am a big advocate for being fair in life and standing for the truth as well. So my 2 words before even starting class is "Fair Hope". Maybe while doing the class those words could change But i don't think so..it's amazing I have the 2 words that describe my disciple story before even starting and that we serve such a GREAT GOD...I just LOVE it when he gives me what I need when I need it..

Be Ready!!!

Back on Dec 24th 2024 to be exact I was in the shower and the Holy spirit told me "Be Ready!"..I thought ready for what..your second coming, what could happen in the next few days in society, etc...what do i need to be ready for? Then an image appeared on my mirror of a snake head and then a cross next to it..and I thought maybe he wants me to be ready for the battle between good and evil (the final battle ) or even the current battle since we live in a fallen world...needless to say I was at bible study yesterday and we had a guest speaker and she spoke about Being ready...at first it didn't hit me but then a lightbulb clicked on in my head and the God said..remember when I told you to be ready..pay attention...She talked about keeping your lamps lit/burning, being wise, and looking for God and being ready...you don't know the hour on which he will return. God is SOOOOOOOO awesome as he ALWAYS reiterats or confirms what he wants you to know..it's so exciting when that happens..so no matter what we all need to BE READY!!!

3 signs

Yesterday was a hard day as it was the day my oldest went back to college..my youngest starts kindergarten tomorrow and my middle child will be moving off to college as well this upcoming weekened...As I was getting gas yesterday I noticed at the pump that I paid 33.31 cents to be exact and it filled 11.333 gallons. As you know from previous posts God gives me the number 333 to show me his presence or I should say to say "i'm here " or a God wink if you will..33 is age of Jesus when he died and 3 is Trinity. Then I go to work and one of my patients family members has a "Life is Good" shirt on and that was my dad's favorite saying...I then get home and sitting at kitchen table and I look down and there's a "heart" on the floor..It was actually a piece of tape but it was in the shape of a heart. God is awesome and I'm thankful that I can see all that he shows me..It's my hearts desire to not miss anything he wants to show me as I feel it's all a blessing from him. I then read in my book "Come away my Beloved" this morning.."The fool shall not discern the value, and shall cast aside great treasure. The practiced eye knoweth the true worth of a gem and shall not let it escape him. Thus shall ye be in spiritual matters. Train thine eye to discern that which is of true worth, and let it not escape thee." WOW!!! Amen and Amen! On a seperate note the Lord put it on my heart earlier this week to write on an index card "God loves you" and put a stone with scripture verse on it and give it out in my Uber delieveries...and this mornings message at church was "Come as you Are" and How God loves everyone no matter what..we are called to love others but not their sin! Amen!!

angels and rainbows

Before I started work yesterday my mom and I were having a conversation about having faith and how God gives us signs for those that believe and are actively seeking him..then met a patient that kinda reiterated the same thing and then as I was leaving work I saw a rainbow in the cloud and I took a pic of it and saw briefly an object to the right but thought i'll just look at my pic when I get home. My daughter Ashley also works where I work and she took a pic of the rainbow as well but she parked in different spot near front so she got a different angle..In her pic the flag is directly under than rainbow and on closer inspection there's an angel riding a horse or animal to the right of the rainbow and looks like a spear or sword coming out of it's mouth...she then asked me if there are any verses relating to a sword coming out of mouth and I said in Revelation 19:15 " From his mouth comes a sharp sword with which to strike down the nations and he will rule them with a rod of iron.".. Wow! I then looked at the pic I took and I saw an angel to the right of the rainbow as well but this one is sitting and looks like it's praying. So AMAZING!!! I know we all need to be in prayer for our nation especially as we enter this upcoming election. Things are crazy and will probably get crazier but we have to know no matter what God is in Control and He ALWAYS wins!!!!!!!!!

Prayer of Protection

Last week before I went to work I was feeling very overwhelmed by just a lot of things hitting me at once and feeling spritually attacked...a few weeks prior I had my refrigerator freezer go out and was told it would be cheaper to replace, then I was upstairs and heard dripping and realied my shower was leaking from upstairs and was told I will need to completely need to remove the tub as the seal was warped and there was decay underneath from the leak, and then I found out at my job that we were cyberattacked and now having to chart old school (paper charting) which was going to increase the stress dramatically...So I sent out a prayer request to my bible study group asking for protection..I then went to my bible as I felt there was going to be a word I needed to hear today from my daily reading bible...turned to the day's reading and one of the scriptures was psalm 59 "Prayer of protection"....WOW!!!!! God is sooooooooo Amazing and he does these things to let us know that he has it...Nothing is overlooked by him and it was a love tap from him! Another cool thing that happened this week as my 5 year old is graduating preschool is that my facebook memory feed showed that my fixing to be high school graduate gradated the same day 13 years prior that my now 5 year old is graduating preschool! AMAZING!!!

Butterfly

I went to a 3 day Lauren Daigle Concert in Miramar Beach this past week (It was amazing) and on the 3rd day I was so tired from the week and also from the day as we had to get up early to go to a women's Christian conference called e women in Pensacola for the day so I was almost not going to go to the 3rd night of worship but then I just perservered and went anyway and I'm glad I did..one of the opening singers was John Batiste whom I've never heard of before and his music was very upbeat. I was admiring the clouds as the sunsets had been sooo great...I noticed these clouds in front of me and it looked like angel wings..then john states he's going to sing a song called "Butterfly"..well you can read about my previous posts on the butterfly and it's significance but in a nut shell the Lord sent 3 yellow butterflies while I was walking on my dad's birthday a few years ago (he died in 2018) and So the butterfly has great significance to me and currently I'm actally hatching caterpillars that I got off of amazon to watch the transformation process which in of itself is a miracle. So while I'm listening to the lyrics of this song...I notice a butterfly forms in the cloud!!! It was so amazing and the lyrics are about your loved one flying to heaven ...The very next song he then sings is "you are my sunshine"..and my dad used to sing that song and he liked to call every female he me "hello sunshine". It was truly amazing and I felt it was a love tap from my dad. https//youtu.be/Jx813IBmzdA?si=NUQQaVoyxPMh2_jD