3 Butterflies on my dad's birthday

Today is a difficult day as it's my Dad's 70th Birthday (he passed away almost 3 years ago). He was such a light to soooo many. I was walking with my son this am and I saw an orange butterfly fly at me..and I thought I want so see a yellow one (as I thought of yellow reresents life and light and that's what my dad was..right after I thought that a yellow butterfly flys in front of me..wow!!!! Then the Holy Spirit said "wait, there's more". Then a second one flew by from another direction. Then I thought well God always does things in threes and then I saw a third one! This all took place literally in one minute. It was Amazing!!! I really felt the presence of my dad today. I know he's celebrating his birthday in heaven. Oh how I miss him!!! Thankful for the love tap!

3 rainbows!

I made a last min decision to take my girls down to Orlando before school started to go to Disney world! Yes I probably was crazy but I thought life is short and I want to have fun so why not? Also the prices were cheap and people had reported low lines which never happens there.. so we took advantage of it.. as we were traveling down we went through some pretty heavy rain storms and I thought "there's going to be a rainbow"..Looked to my left and there it was! Driving about 30 min later another one appears and then I thought well God always does things in threes with me so there's going to be a third and about an hour later a third one! I really felt he blessed our trip in more ways than one..by his ultimate protection on the road and while out and about and just bringing my girls and I closer together. I love my husband and my son but that time with the girls was very much needed as well. I feel super blessed!!

333/ Jesus in sunflower field in cloud

I just got back from a great time in the mountains just to get away from all the chaos in the World and I wanted to just disconnect from society for just a few days! We went to Greenville SC on our last day up there and I was looking for a parking spot and I pulled into this one spot and realized I couldn't park there so I backed up and thought I should just go back and park in that 5 dollar lot I just passed..So went into that lot and the parking attendant gave me the parking pass to put in my windshield and I didn't look at it at the time and I just threw it up there and went shopping then came back to car and had to park in a different lot since the shopping was a little further away ..well then I looked down on my dash board and the parking ticket number was 333..I was soooo Excited as you can read back on previous posts about How God shows me this number and why it's significant..needless to say that will stay in my car for awhile. It's a great reminder that he is always there :). The next day on our drive home we decided to stop at the Sunflower patch that we saw driving up and so we stopped and got a few pics. Well then my mom texted me later that night and said "you know there is a heart above the girls standing in the patch in the clouds...and there is Jesus in one of the pics above the sunflowers....now I had to enlarge the photo to actually see what she saw and sure enough there he is looking down with his arms outstetched..I asked her how she even saw that and she said the cloud looked odd so she enlarged it and that's what she saw! Wow! Also on that day in Jesus calling it says "When you approach me in stillness and in trust you are strengthened. You need a buffer zone of silence around you in order to focus on things that are unseen. Since I am invisible, you must not let your senses dominate your thinking. The Curse of this age is over-stimulation of the senses, which blocks out awareness of the unseen world. The tangible world still reflects my Glory, to those who have eyes that see and ears that hear. Spending time alone with me is the best way to develop seeing eyes and hearing ears. The goal is to be aware of unseen things even as you live out your life in the visible world." AMAZING!!!!

Easter 2020/Clouds/Pandemic

So 2020 what a year so far..One thing I never expected was to enter into a Pandemic. I Work as an ER nurse so it's been challenging to say the least having to put on and off Personal protective equipment (which it can be highly exhausting..but also VERY grateful for it! ). Easter was very intresting as we couldn't worship in a church bldg like we normally do but I still put on my Easter attire and worshipped in my living room watching church on T.V. It was GREAT..The enemy was trying to keep us from worshipping but what he doesn't realize is we can worship Anytime and amywhere!!! Praise GOD! We rode down to the park where my mom lives nearby to look at the water after having a great Easter and I was looking at the clouds and all of a sudden you can see a face appear and then it looked like he was riding a horse. It was Amazing!!! It was like he was putting on a show and I sensed the holy spirit say " I am here.. I will protect you and your family from this Covid'..you shall not FEAR" ..Wow! Well then I was in the shower later that night and my heart was VERY heavy about the Pandememic and world at large and I pleaded with him for healing of the Nation and World at large and he said 3:23..So I look up the scripture as soon as possible and I looked up proverbs chapter 3 starting with 23rd verse: "Then you will go on your way in safety, and your foot will not stumble, when you lie down, you will not be afraid; when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet. Have no fear of sudden disaster or of the ruin that overtakes the wicked, for the Lord will be at your side and will keep your foot from being snared." ..WOW.. Now i did look up other verses in scripture of 3:23 but this one really spoke to me and what the lord had told me earlier when the clouds appeared. I really felt this overwhelming protection from him and have felt it ever since. The FEAR left and I have been filled with great peace! The other day I was at the gym and my friends asked me how it's possible that I haven't got covid with working with high-risk patients/job. I told them it was all God and he has protected me and will continue doing so! God is GREAT! (note: If you look up horses in scripture, in Revelation it talks about Jesus coming back on his horse and the 4 horsemen (white, red, black and pale horses..which symbolize Conquest, War, Famine and death respectively.) (

Surprise!!!

So going back to 2018 where I left off... A lot had happened that year with the death of my father and my grandmother falling and going to live with my mom and then eventually ended up in the nursing home since she kept falling...well in May we got a major surprise and I found out I was pregnant with my 3rd child! Keep in mind we weren't "trying" and I thought I was done as I had 2 teenagers at the time..I was scared but also excited as I never felt "closure" after having Ashley and I remember God told me "if you have a 3rd baby it will be a boy with blue eyes and red hair".. I kind of brushed it off which I know I shouldn't have but I was content with our cirumstances for the time being..well a few months later we found out we were having a BOY!!! I thought of the name Ryan (I always liked that name) and Phillip for middle name (after my dad who had passed away that year) and I told my mom and she said " you do know that we were going to name you Ryan Phillip if you had been a boy?" WOW!...Talk about confirmation!!! Fast forward..He was born on Jan 23, 2019..and he does have red hair and blue eyes..He currently is now 17mo old and he is such a HUGE BLESSING that goes above and beyond all my expectations.. God is sooooo GREAT and I believe he used my son to bring us such Joy during our time of grief over losing my father.."He gives and takes away"....

it's been awhile

Wow. A lot has happened since I posted back in 2018..This week i felt the nudge from the Holy Spirit telling me to get on here and blog all the things the Lord had been showing me..I thought "yeah..i need to do that .." but then Life got in the way and I got busy during the week.. well then last night I received an email from someone I didn't know that had read my blog about 333 and saw I hadn't posted in awhile and just wanted to check to see if i was still around and was encouraging me to post and not keep silent the things the Lord was showing me. WOW!!! Can you say confirmation? Coincidence? I think NOT. God is soooo awesome like that..I wondered then if Angels or even God could send emails.. I did reply to him and he did reply back : i wanted to copy the email into this post so you can read for yourself..Andrew if you read this i hope that's ok to do but I know God used you in a GREAT and powerful way to get my attention and I'm so very grateful! Thank you if you are reading this !! God Bless! Here is the email that I received (Note: I have never received any email previous about any of my blog posts before)..Timing is AMAZING!!! I was reading the comments to your 2010 post on “3:33 in Biblical Scripture” and how so many people are connecting and or commenting, still today. As far as I can tell you haven’t posted since 2018. I do hope all is well and that you will continue to post a few things this year. You have a relationship with Jesus and a voice that needs to be heard. Blessings to you Jenny...and peace from the Lord Jesus Christ! Andrew Then I Sent: Wow! Thanks for the email! You seriously are an angel from the lord as I was just thinking this week that I need to get on there and update as many things have happened since I’ve posted! He really did use you in a great and mighty way!! I will be on this week to post more things the lord has shown me! Thank you so very much! God bless you and your family! Jenny Then he sent: You know, being a Christian is so unique. It's hard to relate to others at times. I've experienced some of the things you wrote about, like The Lord giving you images to encourage you etc... but when I share them no one seems to care. It makes a person withdraw. But The Lord does not want us to be moved by the responses, or lack of, of men in the earth. We have to push forward and keep telling what The Lord is doing in our lives. Just keep posting. People are reading, and they are connecting in their hearts and minds. They may not respond or post anything, but encouragements and truths are being poured out, and people really need that now a days. (Has the world gone completely insane...) Thanks for your response! Blessings! Andrew

Over coming obstacles

It all started back in late October when I heard movement under my sink in the kitchen. Of course the fear initially sets in because i dislike bugs and critters big time. So I called my husband and we called the exterminator people. They came out to inspect the house and received bad news that we had a rat infestation. I believe it was from clearing out land at the side of the house and they then entered our garage and ate a hole through the wall that led to our laundry room. So they laid out the traps/During this same time our AC unit decides to quit. We then proceeded to have more bad news that we would have to redo the duct work upstairs since it was all messed up and didn't follow regulations. So more money went out the door. Well then during that same time our outside fence was rotting and just fell over and our dog kept escaping and scaring the neighbors ( he wouldn't hurt anyone but he does have a ferocious bark). So we ended up hiring a guy to repair the fence.. more money gone. Also the rat inspector noticed rotting to the door frame on back side of house and states we would need to replace the whole frame and door. We had the fence guys replace and they did an excellent job. Our house is not dumpy by any meeans..it's absolutely beautiful but was built in 92 so things are starting to fall apart if you will. So I felt major spiritual attack at this point..it was one thing after another and I was trying to get ready to go on this amazing trip to Israel and I felt the enemy was trying to distract me from really focusing on the Lord and all that he had planned for me. I always start my day in his word and doing my devotions. I highly recommend "Jesus Calling' if you don't have it already. He really speaks to me through this. I'm reminded of Ephesians 6 where it talks about putting on the full armour of God. We went to Israel leaving the "mess" behind and had an amazing time (see previous post). We then get back and do a load of wash and the washer starts leaking..I thought "those rats ate through the hose"..sure enough they did . See we laid out rat poison while we were gone and my parents watched my dog..well rat poison makes them thirsty so they go to a water source. So now we had to replace the hose. Shortly after i ran the dishwasher and then we had a sink leak and the dishwater Plugged up. So now more money out the door and had to fix all of that and it ate a hole through the dishwasher hose. I was really ready to lose my mind at this point. I didn't really know how much more I could take..of course I would think "it could be worse" so I really counted my blessings and continued to trust in God. We hired a person to cover all the "holes" the rats made and caught a few in the traps and whatever was left in the wall well they would eventually die. After that took place I haven't seen any more rats!! Praise God! I was sure glad that was All over.. Move forward to Jan 2018: We all went out to cracker barrel to celebrate my 38th birthday on the Saturday before my birthday..things were finally feeling back to normal..well that Tuesday My father (age 67) developed a cough after going to visit my grandmother in grand bay. I thought "ok it's just a cough and it should get better, after all this is the worst flu season i've even seen in my 16 years as a nurse." Needless to say it got worse and then he started having diarrhea/vomiting and very weak so on the day of my birthday my mom shows up at bible study with this beautiful cake from public and everyone sings to me but then mom said "dad is worse and I'm going to go take him to ER". So they went to the ER and he was found to be very dehydrated (you see, his large intestine isn't there due to familial polyp disorder -had it removed years before) so when he's sick he can be very sick. They then tell him he has a bowel obstruction (which he had one year before after his hip replacement) so again I wasn't too concerned since we went through that before and it was bowel rest and he was fine..well not this time.. we thought he was getting better and could possibly go home as he was allowed to have clear liquids and soft foods /well that tuesday night he started vomiting again and didn't have any bowel movement and received a text wed am "help me". We then talked to the Dr and they said the general surgeon wants to perform surgery that day..Really? I then felt my world tip / I of course went to prayer and we prayed over my dad and went tho the beautiful prayer chapel in the hospital. I knew I"m not in control and God is..this is completely out of my hands. His surgery went well however they had to remove a portion of his small intestine and found his stomach lining coated with polyps and even thought some were possibly cancerous..they said he would have a long road ahead as he would possibly have to get his stomach removed and go on tube feedings. We were devastated. I know though that my God is bigger than my problems and I knew he could heal him if that was his will to do so. So I kept positive and just wanted to see my dad. He finally got back to his room and he was in some pain. I noticed his respirations were high/so i checked his pulse and it was 130 and so I thought let me check his bp/ 86/50. Normally my dad has high blood pressure. I called the nurse and things just spiraled from there. They bolused him with fluids since he was in some state of "shock". I believe it was hypovolemic since he had nothing really to eat/drink x 1 week and they sucked all that fluid out through the ng before surgery. I was highly upset as well as my mom but I knew I had to be "strong" for her and my dad.. I would just go out in the hall and cry. my mom and I stayed with him all night as he was moved to ICU. The nurses and Doc's were awesome. I did hear the monitor go off at one point and i flew off the couch. They did an EKG as he had a run of V-tach. I asked Dad if he was ok and he said yes. They then came and did one shortly after again and states he's having a major heart attack. My body was shaking..I thought then that I could really lose my dad..I had NO Control..I told him that "I love you Dad, You have to fight!"..He then proceeded to go to cath lab and it felt like FOREVER. The cardiologist came to talk to us and stated that they had to place 3 stents on left side of heart (he had 95 percent blockage in 3 main arteries ) and that they would have to give him integrillin which is a blood thinner but now he runs the risk of bleeding. He also was placed on the ventilator as he couldn't maintain airway. We walked back up to see him and that was very hard. All of his labs kept getting worse as the was not able to perfuse very well to his organs due to his bp being low /despite being on vasopressors) He also started having some internal bleed due to blood thinner. Needless to say it was a highly stressful time but I kept strong in front of my dad but I did lose it a few times.I would sit and stroke his hand and played music and read scriptures over him. We could do dialysis as a last ditch effort but his body had enough. I told him "i know I told you to fight but you have fought but now's your time to go and be with the Lord." That wasn't easy to say as I was still holding hope that Jesus would save him...after all he came and saved my mom years before. God told me "not your will, but my will be done"..it reminded me of Jesus in the Garden as he was submitting his life to God and not wanting to die but was willing to so that we could have eternal life!!! I then completely surrounded my father to God. I knew beyond a shadow of doubt he was going to better place where there would be no more suffering or pain. His bp then dropped after I told him it was ok to let go and that we would be all right from 100 systolic to 50 systolic. his reflexes went and i knew he probably went to be with God in that moment as the machines/pressors were just keeping him alive physically. During that night mom and I were resting on couch and she felt someone squeeze her arm. She thought it was me but was not. I believe it was my Dad saying "i'm all right, you will be ok". We all gathered around his bed the next day as we said enough was enough and took him off the "pressers" and he died within 10 min. He wasn't suffering as he was sedated and already really left the night before. I did feel great sadness but I also felt happiness for him as I could only imagine what he was seeing in that moment and for the rest of eternity. My father was a great man of faith in God and a huge advocate of prayer. I loved seeing him become so close to the Lord during the last few years and he always attributed it to me since I invited him to my church and he saw how close I was to God. We Then went through the next days with the Strength of God . It was only by God that we were able to even function. I did pray to the Holy spirit on that wednesday (day of his surgery ) to give me strength and joshua 1:9 was mentioned as well as 5 other verses about strength..Wow..ask and you shall receive.. On the day of the viewing my grandmother fell getting into the car/we thought she was alright initially but then after the viewing couldn't stand and felt woozy. she had hit her head. I then proceeded to go with her in the ambulance to the ER but then the CT scan breaks and she had to be transported to Fort walton. My aunt lucy went with her as we had dad's Funeral the next day..I thought what else Lord?? Her brain scan came back negative but she ended up having fractured pelvis. She then had to stay in hospital a few days and then go to rehab which is where she is currently. Big praise though is that she will come live with my mom since she is 92 years of age and that will help my mom focus on her rather than other things. It's bad as well since it's a lot to deal with at one time. We know God's in control though. I went to visit my dad's grave the other day..while there wind chimes started going and there was no wind..but then a big wind burst came out of nowhere and the leaves fell and then big rain drops fell from the sky for a few seconds ..i went back to my car an no water was on my windshield. I do believe it was a sign from my dad..he knows i love signs from God. In closing..I'm so very grateful for all my family and friends and their support during this difficult time. I know my dad is so very happy with Jesus and all the relatives who have gone before. I thank you all from the bottom of my heart.