Mary night

A few weeks ago we had "mary night" ..a night of reflection /worship/communion. My mom just retired from the school and has been having some difficulty adjusting to being "retired" and letting go /grieving over her job. It's hard when you work for so many years and think "now what?". Anyway..It was an awesome time and we discussed letting go of our fears and trusting God. We each were given a verse to read and I got Jeremiah 29: 11 which was my verse at my walk to Emmaus. My mom got Romans 4: 5 "However, to the one who does not work but trusts God who justifies the ungodly, their faith is credited as righteousness." WOW!! Everyone that was there got a verse that meant something to them or ministered to them in such a great way! At the end, we were talking to one of my friends and she was telling me how she had lily in her group for VBS and how lily shared the story how my mom was healed 6 years ago. My mom and I then proceed to walk into the living room to gather our things and on the tv (she had it on christian music channel)...the song that started was the song that ministered to me while Mom was ill 6 years ago from 10th avenue north (hold my heart).. We both instantly were overwhelmed and then i started to leave and another lady that was there shared her story how God conveyed to her to be still and know he is God...which was what Jesus conveyed to my mom when he healed her 6 years ago! I felt like God was wanting to remind my mom what he did for her 6 years ago..that he is the HEALER and he is her comforter etc..That all she has to do is keep her eyes on Him and he will direct her paths.. She did feel better after that..sometimes we all need reminders of what God has done for us especially when you are down.

the Cross

I woke up on Good friday and I was in the bathroom and looked down and there was this cross bracelet on the floor (probably from one of my daughters)..I thought "that's neat" being that it's good Friday. I then walked to the kitchen and my foot touched something. I looked down and there was this small cross. Wasn't sure what kind of material it was at first but it felt foamy. Wow..a second cross within 5 min..! I then went to work and one of my patients had a newspaper with crosses on it.It reallly is amazing how God shows us things if we have our eyes open to it~

Er position

I am currently a home health nurse and a few weeks ago I decided to just browse the jobs online and came across a part time ER position. I was excited since I worked ER 5 years ago and felt that was my niche out of all the jobs I had done so far. I reallly loved the excitement of it all and taking care of many different conditions/patients. I started praying that If God wants me there he will make it happen and show me different signs. A few weeks go by after I had applied and the nurse called me and offered me to come in for an interview. I went and knew a MD I worked with at previous hospital in ER there and a nurse I knew from my military wives group that I used to be apart of. I remember her saying " I work part time in the ER and I thought that would be great to have a part time job (only 2 days a week) . Part time by the way is hard to find ..it's either full time or prn and even that it's usually night shift since hardly anywone desires to work nights. It turns out I will be taking her position since she's moving to south FL! The interview went very well and she said most likely I have the positiion and will let me know Wed. I then went home very excited but then I thought "I haven't worked er in 5 years..i have forgotten a lot of things ..am i really made for this job..do i trust myself..etc. " I also told my husband I need a refresher on splints since we have to do our own splinting and then a knock came at the door about 10min later and it was a neighbor with her son who had fallen and fractured his wrist! I had ace wrap on me so we wrapped it and applied ice and she took him to ER. It was just odd I just got done talking about splints and a fracture shows up at my door!!! What are the chances? I got the call Thursday that I have the position! My other work took it well..It will be hard to leave my co workers since they are like family. I can't wait to see What God has in store for me in the meantime.

the face

A few weeks ago I was having my quiet time with the Lord. I was feeling frustrated since my cousin by marriage is suffering from a brain tumor. I was questioning God "Why".. etc. I then looked over to my porch and sun was streaming though..I then saw an image appear and it was a face with one eye. I then just thought to myself "It would be better with two eyes." I looked back over and the face had 2 eyes! It lasted for awhile and then went away but then an image of 2 angels appeared with a heart in the center. It was very neat! I really felt like God was saying " I know how you feel and I am here for you." It really was amazing.

Signs

It's been awhile since I've written. It doesn't by any means mean that God has not been speaking because he has in great big ways!! He's always trying to get our attention and showing us things but in this day and age there are many things that distract us! I went and served on a walk to emmaus 2 weeks ago.. The Lord us usually shows me a rainbow when I go there so I was slightly disappointed when I didn't see one prior to going. I felt he would show me one in the sky before the weekend was out. On the way home it was overcast and right before I got home a rainbow appeared!!! Then I took a picture of that and some pics of a cloud over the lake nearby and as I was looking at this pic closely I saw a face with his arm outstretched!! So awesome. I will see if I can get that pic uploaded! The other day I had a dream I was at church and there was this lady that came over to me and said "God told me to come over and tell you to let go.. He's in control." I remember crying then I woke up. That morning I received a text from a dear friend whom I haven't talked to in several months .. Here's what it said:This morning as I wake up I am very blessed that through all the trees and branches of life that God always lights our path. Praying a special prayer for you that you will feel God's presence and know he is in control and lean on him for strength and comfort as his Love Grace and Mercy are all we really need!! Love you and thank you for being there for me!. Wow!! God confirmed I need to let go and try not to control the days events etc. Last night I went to sleep and at 333 this am I dreamt someone saying my name "Jenny" as I'm waking up.. Hard to know whether it was said in my dream or someone saying it in reality! God is amazing and yes I surrender to him my whole self even if I have to remind myself daily to surrender to his will and not mine!

Phillipians 4:13

Last Sunday, 2/16/14 I woke up and was becoming anxious and dreading the upcoming week. I claimed Phillipians 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ who Strengthens me"..I then proceeded downstairs and the sun was coming in very bright through the kitchen window and hit the refrigerator. I saw this image appear and it looked like Jesus ..You could see his eyes, nose, mouth, hair, and robe and above him a crown that was shining brightly. I managed to get a picture which I will post later. It lasted maybe 10 seconds. It was sooo amazing. I then read my Jesus calling devotional and it mentioned being still and knowing that he is God and about his presence is more felt when we are still. I do believe he's always showing things to us but we are so caught up in this world with it's many distractions that we fail to recognize the things he is desiring to show us. He is our heavenly father who delights in each one of us! I then read my bible study for the day ..we are studying Gideon by Priscilla shirer on Thursday Mornings and it mentioned that the Lord appeared to Gideon and how he can show up in unpredictable ways..his message to Gideon was "the Lord is with you". I feel that He appeared to me to let me know that He is with me..Whom shall I fear..and that yes I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength..It was very overwhelming! So I'm continuing to persevere with God by my side just like you should as well because he is with all of us and he loves us all so completely!!

scripture in prayer

This morning my heart was heavy but also excited for this next phase of my daughter's life..Lily turned 10..double digits!! I remember just the other day that she was born..time just flew by..i'm excited about the next 10 years but also frightened since the world can be a scary place but it's also a great place! She has become such a bright young lady..who's chasing boys, always cleaning, and very studious. I can see her going far in life. The most important thing is for her and ashley and for everyone to keep their eyes on Jesus. We live in a very fast culture and wanting things now and so many things distract us from what God is calling us to do! He's always revealing himself to us but I feel we are too busy to notice at times..this am was one of those "revelations"..I LOVE when I really Sense God's presence. I went to bible study this am and I saw my friend and she had been one of those people that prayed for my mom and dad when they were ill and was part of the prayer team that would come and pray with them in the hospital. She is going through some issues of her own and I felt the Holy spirit prompting me to pray with her. During our prayer time, I prayed 2 scriptures over her :Jeremiah 29:11 and Romans 8:28. We really felt the Holy spirit. Then we went our separate ways. We all had table time before the video started and the first question was what is the best present you ever recieved? One of my friends said "Jesus" which I totally agreed to and then I thought about it some more and I said "Jesus healing my mother 4 years ago " (look back on blog of my mother's healing) to where Jesus actually came and laid hands on her and she was healed. They were all speechless after that. We started watching the video by Priscilla shirer session 2 of Gideon and everything she said was related to all that happened this am..she mentinoned Jeremiah 29:11, Romans 8:28 , The video was about the Lord appearing to Gideon and giving him strength and I just got done telling them that the Lord appeared to my mom and healed her..It was just too much!! Very overwhelmed and it left me speechless! I then went to proctor at Ashley's school and they had 33 math questions they had to answer..33 is a number the Lord shows me over and over again..(age of Jesus when he died)..it was another love tap..maybe i look too much into it but I know it's from God. God is soo amazing and when he wants to get a message across he will continue to show you numbers, verses, or even himself!