Er position

I am currently a home health nurse and a few weeks ago I decided to just browse the jobs online and came across a part time ER position. I was excited since I worked ER 5 years ago and felt that was my niche out of all the jobs I had done so far. I reallly loved the excitement of it all and taking care of many different conditions/patients. I started praying that If God wants me there he will make it happen and show me different signs. A few weeks go by after I had applied and the nurse called me and offered me to come in for an interview. I went and knew a MD I worked with at previous hospital in ER there and a nurse I knew from my military wives group that I used to be apart of. I remember her saying " I work part time in the ER and I thought that would be great to have a part time job (only 2 days a week) . Part time by the way is hard to find ..it's either full time or prn and even that it's usually night shift since hardly anywone desires to work nights. It turns out I will be taking her position since she's moving to south FL! The interview went very well and she said most likely I have the positiion and will let me know Wed. I then went home very excited but then I thought "I haven't worked er in 5 years..i have forgotten a lot of things ..am i really made for this job..do i trust myself..etc. " I also told my husband I need a refresher on splints since we have to do our own splinting and then a knock came at the door about 10min later and it was a neighbor with her son who had fallen and fractured his wrist! I had ace wrap on me so we wrapped it and applied ice and she took him to ER. It was just odd I just got done talking about splints and a fracture shows up at my door!!! What are the chances? I got the call Thursday that I have the position! My other work took it well..It will be hard to leave my co workers since they are like family. I can't wait to see What God has in store for me in the meantime.

the face

A few weeks ago I was having my quiet time with the Lord. I was feeling frustrated since my cousin by marriage is suffering from a brain tumor. I was questioning God "Why".. etc. I then looked over to my porch and sun was streaming though..I then saw an image appear and it was a face with one eye. I then just thought to myself "It would be better with two eyes." I looked back over and the face had 2 eyes! It lasted for awhile and then went away but then an image of 2 angels appeared with a heart in the center. It was very neat! I really felt like God was saying " I know how you feel and I am here for you." It really was amazing.

Signs

It's been awhile since I've written. It doesn't by any means mean that God has not been speaking because he has in great big ways!! He's always trying to get our attention and showing us things but in this day and age there are many things that distract us! I went and served on a walk to emmaus 2 weeks ago.. The Lord us usually shows me a rainbow when I go there so I was slightly disappointed when I didn't see one prior to going. I felt he would show me one in the sky before the weekend was out. On the way home it was overcast and right before I got home a rainbow appeared!!! Then I took a picture of that and some pics of a cloud over the lake nearby and as I was looking at this pic closely I saw a face with his arm outstretched!! So awesome. I will see if I can get that pic uploaded! The other day I had a dream I was at church and there was this lady that came over to me and said "God told me to come over and tell you to let go.. He's in control." I remember crying then I woke up. That morning I received a text from a dear friend whom I haven't talked to in several months .. Here's what it said:This morning as I wake up I am very blessed that through all the trees and branches of life that God always lights our path. Praying a special prayer for you that you will feel God's presence and know he is in control and lean on him for strength and comfort as his Love Grace and Mercy are all we really need!! Love you and thank you for being there for me!. Wow!! God confirmed I need to let go and try not to control the days events etc. Last night I went to sleep and at 333 this am I dreamt someone saying my name "Jenny" as I'm waking up.. Hard to know whether it was said in my dream or someone saying it in reality! God is amazing and yes I surrender to him my whole self even if I have to remind myself daily to surrender to his will and not mine!

Phillipians 4:13

Last Sunday, 2/16/14 I woke up and was becoming anxious and dreading the upcoming week. I claimed Phillipians 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ who Strengthens me"..I then proceeded downstairs and the sun was coming in very bright through the kitchen window and hit the refrigerator. I saw this image appear and it looked like Jesus ..You could see his eyes, nose, mouth, hair, and robe and above him a crown that was shining brightly. I managed to get a picture which I will post later. It lasted maybe 10 seconds. It was sooo amazing. I then read my Jesus calling devotional and it mentioned being still and knowing that he is God and about his presence is more felt when we are still. I do believe he's always showing things to us but we are so caught up in this world with it's many distractions that we fail to recognize the things he is desiring to show us. He is our heavenly father who delights in each one of us! I then read my bible study for the day ..we are studying Gideon by Priscilla shirer on Thursday Mornings and it mentioned that the Lord appeared to Gideon and how he can show up in unpredictable ways..his message to Gideon was "the Lord is with you". I feel that He appeared to me to let me know that He is with me..Whom shall I fear..and that yes I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength..It was very overwhelming! So I'm continuing to persevere with God by my side just like you should as well because he is with all of us and he loves us all so completely!!

scripture in prayer

This morning my heart was heavy but also excited for this next phase of my daughter's life..Lily turned 10..double digits!! I remember just the other day that she was born..time just flew by..i'm excited about the next 10 years but also frightened since the world can be a scary place but it's also a great place! She has become such a bright young lady..who's chasing boys, always cleaning, and very studious. I can see her going far in life. The most important thing is for her and ashley and for everyone to keep their eyes on Jesus. We live in a very fast culture and wanting things now and so many things distract us from what God is calling us to do! He's always revealing himself to us but I feel we are too busy to notice at times..this am was one of those "revelations"..I LOVE when I really Sense God's presence. I went to bible study this am and I saw my friend and she had been one of those people that prayed for my mom and dad when they were ill and was part of the prayer team that would come and pray with them in the hospital. She is going through some issues of her own and I felt the Holy spirit prompting me to pray with her. During our prayer time, I prayed 2 scriptures over her :Jeremiah 29:11 and Romans 8:28. We really felt the Holy spirit. Then we went our separate ways. We all had table time before the video started and the first question was what is the best present you ever recieved? One of my friends said "Jesus" which I totally agreed to and then I thought about it some more and I said "Jesus healing my mother 4 years ago " (look back on blog of my mother's healing) to where Jesus actually came and laid hands on her and she was healed. They were all speechless after that. We started watching the video by Priscilla shirer session 2 of Gideon and everything she said was related to all that happened this am..she mentinoned Jeremiah 29:11, Romans 8:28 , The video was about the Lord appearing to Gideon and giving him strength and I just got done telling them that the Lord appeared to my mom and healed her..It was just too much!! Very overwhelmed and it left me speechless! I then went to proctor at Ashley's school and they had 33 math questions they had to answer..33 is a number the Lord shows me over and over again..(age of Jesus when he died)..it was another love tap..maybe i look too much into it but I know it's from God. God is soo amazing and when he wants to get a message across he will continue to show you numbers, verses, or even himself!

pity party

This morning didn't start out very well..my daughter misplaced her library book and one of my biggest pet peeves is things getting misplaced..I then had a yelling match with my daughter since she said she didn't need to test on that AR book and needed to test on another one..long story short..I didn't act like I should have and of course apologized later. I also had a pity party for myself and told the Lord "I'm done" since I'm just sooo tired of cleaning and just doing and being so many things to so many people etc..like I said I was having a huge pity party that we all need to do every now and then..just to vent..if you know what i mean. Anyhow..as I'm driving to my bible study that I was in desperate need of by the way..I was listening to Psalm 91:1 and they said the verse of the day is 1Peter 5:8-9 talking about the devil prowling around like a roaring lion seeking someone to devour!..I felt that I was being spirtually attacked by the enemy by letting myself escalate and to think of unpleasant things..I then repented to the lord, I prayed for protection and that I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength..etc. In my weakness: he is made strong!. So I had this awesome time spent in prayer with the Lord and then I turn my radio back on as I"m pulling in the parking lot and this song that was on that I NEVER heard before and it was by Royal Tailor entitled "Remain" Royal Tailor - Remain (Single) Lyrics Royal Tailor - Remain From the album Remain (Single) I know you're feeling weighed down It's all on your shoulders I know the dreams in your head Don't look any closer I'm gonna make you stronger Hold on just a little bit longer Cause I'll be there When you feel like you're going under Yea I'm gonna be there for ya, yea The sky could fall The ground could shake The stars burn out And seasons change Time will pass and beauty fade But all My love will remain When there's a secret to tell It's locked and I'll keep it close When you're walking through fire I'll take you to streets of gold I'm gonna make you stronger Hold on just a little bit longer Cause I'll be there When you feel like you're going under Yea I'm gonna be there for ya, yea And when the world all around you Is out of place And you can't seem to find a familiar face I'm here to remind you My love remains WOW!!!!!!!!!! It spoke right to me..the very core of my being..but I was going to get out of my car and then another song which I NEVER heard before came on by Jaime Thietten..Here are the lyrics to "It's a Good day": ' Nother Day too much to do, Keep checkin' things off Seems like you'll never get through, And life keeps on flyin' by Always say yes, never say no Spinnin' those plates, round and around you go Never stop to ask yourself why But hold on, let's wait a minute It's a Good Day good day to be alive Everyone sing now So let's do more than just survive That's what I'm sayin' Don't lose sight, of all the beauty that surrounds you Don't let it pass you by, It's a good day to be alive Well the birds don't run and hide When the sun gets stuck behind the clouds in the sky They know it's gonna be alright When the flowers feel the rain Comin' down they don't melt into the ground And question the grand design Cuz the sun, will come back around yea, It doesn't matter, the path that you take Keep your eyes open and see the love along the way, yeah WOW again!!! I was so overcome by the spirit and just sat in my car and bawled like a baby..It was so amazing..well then I go to women of the Word and I find out that a 23 year old school teacher died of a brain aneurysm..just like that..gone..Lesson: EACH DAY IS A BLESSING and we should live each day as if it's our last! and SEE the good around us and JUST ENJOY LIFE and seeing GOD in EVERYTHING!! So no matter what you are going through God is with you ..He cares about your pity party and for all the little things and Big things as well..the love that he has for each and every one of us is so amazing! Even in the Darkness His light will shine!!! Just a side note: I did get an email during bible study from one of my besties mom's and she said her daughter felt an overwhelming attack from the enemy as well and we all need to put on our armor of God!!!

Overcoming obstacles

Back in the beginning of Oct, I was asked to be the speaker at one of our Emmaus meetings at my church. I felt so honored but also felt unsure of what God wanted me to speak about since there are so many things he has done! I then felt I would get more clarity from God when I went to a retreat called "Brides of Christ" in Orlando with one of my best friends Tanya. So while we were there I was given a verse to read and it was Ephesians 6 (talking about putting on the full armor of God). I thought beforehand that he wanted me to speak on overcoming obstacles before each Emmaus walk and so this was another sign from God that he wanted me to mention this scripture in my testimony..but he wasn't done yet. ..We had some alone time with God and during that time I was able to walk the prayer labrinynth which is this pretty woven maze. I was deep in prayer and talking to God when I rounded the corner and saw all these spiders and the web was literally blocking my path..Now know that I have a DEEP fear of spiders and really there was NO WAY i was going ahead. I told the Lord that but I felt the spirit beckoning me to get to the end and to grab my sword ..a stick..and slay the spiders and forge ahead with the help from the Holy Spirit "I can do ALL things through Christ Who Strengthens me". So I forged ahead and I was able to get to the END where this beautiful cross was awaiting me..It's kind of an analogy of life..In this life we will have Obstacles to overcome but God is with us through us and he will see us to the END where we will meet him in GLORY and that is where our true AWARD awaits us..it's not on this earth for this earth is only temporary but heaven is for ETERNITY! He also gave me during the week the verse in Hebrews 12:1-2 "Run the race that is set out before us and to keep our eyes on Jesus"..Paraphrasing. God also gave me the verse in Ephesians 3:20 that was in Jesus calling and in my bible study for the week.."Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine.. Also John 16:33 states "IN this world you will have trouble but take heart I've overcome the world" I was then getting ready for my testimony and looked outside and felt the Holy spirit prompting me to go outside and look for a rainbow ..since I was going to talk about how God gave me a rainbow before each Emmaus walk (mine, dad's, mom's) and about mom's healing and how God gave me a rainbow then as well.I didn't see the rainbow at first but somehow I sensed there was one..then 5 min later I get this text from my friend and she sees one in Bluewater but I guess I couldn't see it since the trees were in the way and she sent me a pic of it..another analogy is this..even though we don't see God, He is always there!!! I was and am overcome with thankfulness to the Lord for showing me a rainbow again on the day (just an hour before I was to give my testimony that was about rainbows of all things). Our God cares soooo Much about each and every one of us..we just need to be open to him and to have our eyes and ears open to what he wants to show us! God filled the room as well and was so overcome by the holy spirit during my testimony..it was AMAZING!! ALL GLORY and HONOR and Praise are HIS NOW And Forever!!!!