pity party

This morning didn't start out very well..my daughter misplaced her library book and one of my biggest pet peeves is things getting misplaced..I then had a yelling match with my daughter since she said she didn't need to test on that AR book and needed to test on another one..long story short..I didn't act like I should have and of course apologized later. I also had a pity party for myself and told the Lord "I'm done" since I'm just sooo tired of cleaning and just doing and being so many things to so many people etc..like I said I was having a huge pity party that we all need to do every now and then..just to vent..if you know what i mean. Anyhow..as I'm driving to my bible study that I was in desperate need of by the way..I was listening to Psalm 91:1 and they said the verse of the day is 1Peter 5:8-9 talking about the devil prowling around like a roaring lion seeking someone to devour!..I felt that I was being spirtually attacked by the enemy by letting myself escalate and to think of unpleasant things..I then repented to the lord, I prayed for protection and that I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength..etc. In my weakness: he is made strong!. So I had this awesome time spent in prayer with the Lord and then I turn my radio back on as I"m pulling in the parking lot and this song that was on that I NEVER heard before and it was by Royal Tailor entitled "Remain" Royal Tailor - Remain (Single) Lyrics Royal Tailor - Remain From the album Remain (Single) I know you're feeling weighed down It's all on your shoulders I know the dreams in your head Don't look any closer I'm gonna make you stronger Hold on just a little bit longer Cause I'll be there When you feel like you're going under Yea I'm gonna be there for ya, yea The sky could fall The ground could shake The stars burn out And seasons change Time will pass and beauty fade But all My love will remain When there's a secret to tell It's locked and I'll keep it close When you're walking through fire I'll take you to streets of gold I'm gonna make you stronger Hold on just a little bit longer Cause I'll be there When you feel like you're going under Yea I'm gonna be there for ya, yea And when the world all around you Is out of place And you can't seem to find a familiar face I'm here to remind you My love remains WOW!!!!!!!!!! It spoke right to me..the very core of my being..but I was going to get out of my car and then another song which I NEVER heard before came on by Jaime Thietten..Here are the lyrics to "It's a Good day": ' Nother Day too much to do, Keep checkin' things off Seems like you'll never get through, And life keeps on flyin' by Always say yes, never say no Spinnin' those plates, round and around you go Never stop to ask yourself why But hold on, let's wait a minute It's a Good Day good day to be alive Everyone sing now So let's do more than just survive That's what I'm sayin' Don't lose sight, of all the beauty that surrounds you Don't let it pass you by, It's a good day to be alive Well the birds don't run and hide When the sun gets stuck behind the clouds in the sky They know it's gonna be alright When the flowers feel the rain Comin' down they don't melt into the ground And question the grand design Cuz the sun, will come back around yea, It doesn't matter, the path that you take Keep your eyes open and see the love along the way, yeah WOW again!!! I was so overcome by the spirit and just sat in my car and bawled like a baby..It was so amazing..well then I go to women of the Word and I find out that a 23 year old school teacher died of a brain aneurysm..just like that..gone..Lesson: EACH DAY IS A BLESSING and we should live each day as if it's our last! and SEE the good around us and JUST ENJOY LIFE and seeing GOD in EVERYTHING!! So no matter what you are going through God is with you ..He cares about your pity party and for all the little things and Big things as well..the love that he has for each and every one of us is so amazing! Even in the Darkness His light will shine!!! Just a side note: I did get an email during bible study from one of my besties mom's and she said her daughter felt an overwhelming attack from the enemy as well and we all need to put on our armor of God!!!

Overcoming obstacles

Back in the beginning of Oct, I was asked to be the speaker at one of our Emmaus meetings at my church. I felt so honored but also felt unsure of what God wanted me to speak about since there are so many things he has done! I then felt I would get more clarity from God when I went to a retreat called "Brides of Christ" in Orlando with one of my best friends Tanya. So while we were there I was given a verse to read and it was Ephesians 6 (talking about putting on the full armor of God). I thought beforehand that he wanted me to speak on overcoming obstacles before each Emmaus walk and so this was another sign from God that he wanted me to mention this scripture in my testimony..but he wasn't done yet. ..We had some alone time with God and during that time I was able to walk the prayer labrinynth which is this pretty woven maze. I was deep in prayer and talking to God when I rounded the corner and saw all these spiders and the web was literally blocking my path..Now know that I have a DEEP fear of spiders and really there was NO WAY i was going ahead. I told the Lord that but I felt the spirit beckoning me to get to the end and to grab my sword ..a stick..and slay the spiders and forge ahead with the help from the Holy Spirit "I can do ALL things through Christ Who Strengthens me". So I forged ahead and I was able to get to the END where this beautiful cross was awaiting me..It's kind of an analogy of life..In this life we will have Obstacles to overcome but God is with us through us and he will see us to the END where we will meet him in GLORY and that is where our true AWARD awaits us..it's not on this earth for this earth is only temporary but heaven is for ETERNITY! He also gave me during the week the verse in Hebrews 12:1-2 "Run the race that is set out before us and to keep our eyes on Jesus"..Paraphrasing. God also gave me the verse in Ephesians 3:20 that was in Jesus calling and in my bible study for the week.."Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine.. Also John 16:33 states "IN this world you will have trouble but take heart I've overcome the world" I was then getting ready for my testimony and looked outside and felt the Holy spirit prompting me to go outside and look for a rainbow ..since I was going to talk about how God gave me a rainbow before each Emmaus walk (mine, dad's, mom's) and about mom's healing and how God gave me a rainbow then as well.I didn't see the rainbow at first but somehow I sensed there was one..then 5 min later I get this text from my friend and she sees one in Bluewater but I guess I couldn't see it since the trees were in the way and she sent me a pic of it..another analogy is this..even though we don't see God, He is always there!!! I was and am overcome with thankfulness to the Lord for showing me a rainbow again on the day (just an hour before I was to give my testimony that was about rainbows of all things). Our God cares soooo Much about each and every one of us..we just need to be open to him and to have our eyes and ears open to what he wants to show us! God filled the room as well and was so overcome by the holy spirit during my testimony..it was AMAZING!! ALL GLORY and HONOR and Praise are HIS NOW And Forever!!!!