Spiritual warfare

Two weeks ago white count of 31 and nephritis (kidney infection). I then proceeded to drive to Tallahassee to be with her and on the way there a deer decided to jump out in front of my car..at first I continued to drive as I thought it probably didn't do too much damage and my goal was to get to Tallahassee. I then thought I better check the car so I did and it was smoking some in front and the front bumper was hanging off. I then prayed I would have reception as it was out in the middle of nowhere. I was able to get reception which I was very grateful for and was able to call my husband as well as the tow truck which was a nightmare since he was trying to ping my location but due to some limited reception was very difficult. I was able to borrow my Father in laws car and make it safely to Tallahassee (I did end up doing about 10,000) in damage to the car. My daughter continued to get better over the next few days (She was able to get IV antibiotics and white count dropped from 31-28-15-10. While she was in the hospital my Sister in law took me out to dinner and while we were waiting for our food the waitress comes over and asks if she drove a certain car and she said yes and she said she had bad news as someone rear ended her in parking lot. I thought ok well it's probably not that bad but I was wrong. The whole back bumper was off and did about 2500 dollars in damge. I then had to call my Brother in law to come get me to take me back to hospital as the car was not driveable. I then really felt like I was under major spiritual attack as I also found out my Aunt was very sick with sepsis as well with double lung pneumonia and on the ventilator ( she eventually was weaned off and placed on hospice ) and just yesterday went to be with the Lord. It's very sad as my uncle (her husband) just died almost 2 months ago with cancer. I then told Ashley while we were still in the hospital that we needed to go to prayer and rebuke the devil. So we did and that's when things started to improve with her white count (went from 28 to 15!). We were able to be discharged on the 4th day and they switched her to Oral antibiotics and now is completely healed! I then taught at Mary night (a time to come together at Jesus's feet) on spiritual warfare /armor of God (Ephesians 6) on that same week and I originally was going to teach it in June but then we took off for a few months so his timing truly was perfect. Also that Sunday the message was on Ephesisans 6. Well then this morning I felt the Holy Spirit convey to me that I'm too busy and need to slow down to spend time wiht him and I felt a little short of breath on way to church as my other daughter told me today she felt feverish etc..and I'm so tired of all the sickness etc..I felt the anxiety creeping in..and I also told my family I felt we were under attack again..I went to church this morning and Hannah preached on 1 peter 5 about "casting all your anxieties on him because he cares for you... the devil prowls around like a roaring lion seeking someone to devour"...WOW!!!!!!!!!! I really felt that message was directed right at me...She then also talked about being busy and how we need to spend more time with God!!! She also mentioned Peter and how he denied Christ 3 times..and this morning I was showing Ryan my son some photos that popped up on my memories when I had gone to Israel in 2017 and the pic was of where Peter denied Christ 3 times!!!! It truly is amazing that all 4 of her sermon points was exactly what happened this morning...God really is amazing!

Hand in cloud

MY mom recently visited Sedona Arizona and stayed at a place called the butterfly house and woke up one morning and saw a rainbow!!! She then went ti this chapel in the mountain and took a pic of the chapel outside and lokked through her pics later and saw a hand in the sky to the right of the chapel!!! Its truly amazing !!! Ill try to post a photo later of it! Internet is being weird.

Eagle

I went to the cabin a few days ago up in SC and it was amazing as always. I always enjoy going to the little white church in the mountain (Rocky Bottom Baptist Church) as I feel there's always a message from God when I go and I really feel the power of the Holy Spirit in that church! Before I went to church the previous week I was watching a testimony from a 14 year old girl that was posted on Tic Tock and she said she had died (car got hit by semi) and she went up to to heaven and God was showing her people on their screens and he wanted her to come back to earth to warn people to not be on their devices so people can hear from him..and that there were too many distractions. So we went to church this past Sunday at the little white church in the mountain and we caught the last 10 min of Sunday School and Jonathen was preaching and stating that we live in a world where there are a lot of distractions and how we can't hear from God because we are too distracted especially by our phones/tablets..WOW!!!!! I was really overcome and wiping tears from my eyes and my son said "Are you sad?" and I said "No, just overcome by the Holy Spirit." God's timing is always perfect. It truly is convicting to get off our devices and really spend time with God. I did bring a tablet to the cabin so Ryan could play games or watch a movie but the charger was broke so It wouldn't charge..then I tried watching tv but it wouldn't work either..(this was before I heard the message). Just goes to show that we can still have fun without the tablet /screens ..we played outside and threw rocks in the stream, enjoyed nature, caught fire flies, worked on a puzzle, played games and went exploring. It was truly amazing.. On Sunday Night we decided to go up to the tallest mountain in SC and it borders NC as well so it's a pretty good overlook..I did ask God to show me a sign of some sort whether it was a rainbow or some other thing he wanted to show me..so we are standing there looking around and there was this big eagle cloud so I took a pic of it and then I looked at how it turned out ..on closer inspection I could see lettering that looked like the word fear above the eagle and then under that looked like Jesus's face, and the the right of that looked like a smiley face and the word sooo good 25. under the rt wing looked like the word "rest" and then up on top left corner of pic the word "Pray". Wow...I'm reminded that we need to Rest and spend time with him , to Pray at all times (pray without ceasing" and to not be distracted by other things that take our attention away from what truly matters which is HIM!!! And to have NO Fear..Perfect love casts out all fear! Also reminded of the verse in Isaiah 40:31 " But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength: they shall mount with with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint". On Monday we went to the this cute health food store in SC and while there this man sits across from us while we were eating and he had an American flag shirt with an Eagle and a cross underneath it! My mom said "I'm going to go talk to him and tell him I like his shirt". So she approached him and told him that and he was so happy and he said "Well, I have a testimony to share with you..a few years ago my kidneys shut down and I woke up 6 days later and God had healed me"...Then mom said "I also have a testimony to share with you"..and she preceded to tell him how God had healed her in 2009 after her hysterecomy (see previous blog post) ..It was soooo amazing how God placed us at the right time to have this encounter..it truly was a God thing and his timing is Always perfect!

Walk to Emmaus

On Thursday this past week I was getting ready in the morning and thinking of taking my friend up to Blue lake that afternoon for her walk to Emmaus..Walk to Emmaus is a spiritual retreat for 4 days and it's a time to grow closer to God ..I haven't been to Emmaus in 7 years since it reminded me of my father as he used to go up and help and was very involved and there were too many memories (good but difficult if you know what I mean)...I was thinking /praying about if God was going to reveal to me a rainbow as he showed one to me on before my walk in 2012 (over my house) and then a little rainbow cloud on my dad's walk (2013)and then a big rainbow over the Gator Cafe before my mom's walk (in 2013). Well when I got to bible study on Thursday Jen had earrings I had gifted her and she said she wanted to wear them since I was sponsoring her and they are rainbow colors!Jen also had a shirt on with a heart on front and on the back talks about how God loves us.. We then started listening the video from the bible study "Luke in the Land"..we were on the last day about the Gospel of Luke in Israel and how she went to different sites which brought me back to the time I was in Israel myself in 2017. It really is a powerful bible study..so she said and for the last site we are going to the "Road to Emmaus"..what??? I was instantly overcome by the Holy Spirit where I felt warm all over and was just crying not out of sadness but how GREAT our God is and the signs he is ALWAYS giving...It's kinda like the 2 on the road to Emmaus where they met Jesus but failed to recognize him but then their eyes were opened!!! We then went to Blue Lake that afternoon completly filled with the Spirit and when I got there a sea of memories came flooding back in a good way..Jen happened to know the check in guy whom was her boss in the AF at one time ...and then I was just standing there and A guy said "Hey i'm so and so and I knew your dad...we worked together at Hurlburt Field and I also was at your wedding...". WOW...Him and his wife were sponsoring a girl that happened to be Jen's roommmate!! I also got to see a girl I haven't seen in foreever..probably about 7 years that was on my walk so many years ago..It truly all was such a blessing!

Lutheran school

I took care of a patient the other day in the ER and we got to talking about shift work and how many kids we have etc..I told him about Ryan how I'm taking him out of public school and putting him in private school either at the lutheran school or another Christian school in town and he said "Well, You are in the right room"...he then went on to say that he used to be a principal at a Lutheran School in Chicago IL and his wife taught there and that's where there children went to school!! I felt it was a confirmation from God that I'm doing the right thing taking him out of public school..and my interview for the Lutheran school happened to be the next day (which went well by the way and he got accepted so they will hold a spot till I find out if he gets accepted in the other which is later this month)...we then went on to share God stories about my mom's healing and how my father passed and how I was able to carry on my father's name etc. I also told them what happened at the ewomen conference (see previous blog) how God spoke to me about Ryan and my husband which only confirms I'm doing the right thing. So then he goes on to say his son had cancer back in 2006 and he's alive to this day and they made a nonforprofit organization called "Phil's Friends"...Phil was my dad's name...which was also his son's name..so they give these care packages to cancer patients and then send them encouraging notes every month! Here's the website if you know of anyone with cancer please pass this on: philsfriends.org. I always pray before work that God puts me where he want me and it's just amazing when you know that you know it's God working! After that shift I was on my way home and the radio was making a strange sound like going in and out and I always listen to psalm 91.1...well then all of a sudden "Thy will" come on which was the song that played after my dad passed and reminded me of when he told me "Not your will but my will be done"...It was so random as I've listened to this station alot and I haven't heard that song in foreever like 2018ish... Last week before whats called "Mary Night"..I was listening to same station and a song came on called "Life is Good" by Matthew West which I've never heard before...Life is good was always what my dad said even when life wasn't so good at the time..He was always very positive. After we had Mary night I got in the car again and it was on again!!! Such a great song..Look it up if you haven't heard it yet. God is awesome and he's always showing us stuff..I always pray my eyes and ears will be openend to what he would have to show me and I pray the same for you!

Voice from God

Yesterday I attended a women's conference that I have been attending every year for quite awhile called EWomen..It was in Pensacola and was a great time. While in Worship yesterday the Holy Spirit said "you do know the reason why your son is having focus issues is to bring him out of his current school to this other school so he can be inindated in the word of God and in turn will help bring your Husband back to Me (Christ). ..Wow...you see I've been really struggling as my son has been having attention issues in Kindergarten and was told by his preschool teacher a year before to hold him back then but I didn't want to ..I was in denial because I said well he knows his letters and numbers and is very smart and so I let him go on to kindergarten but he's still having issues paying attention..at first I thought oh it's just his age , or its a boy thing, etc..but I really feel it may be more than that like ADD although I'm not speaking that into him...I still believe the Lord can direct and heal his brain etc but I have questioned God as to why he's allowing us to walk through this and my Plan was to allow him to follow in his sister's footsteps and go to the same school etc..I literally have grieved having to leave his current school as it doesn't have too many accomadations for his focus issues and this other school will provide those things as well as give him Christian education which I like. I was able to surrender my son and my husband to God yesterday at the conference and felt a lot of peace but there was this inner part of me doubting if what I truly heard was from God. So this morning I'm listening to Destiny Worship center's message on "Discerning the Voice of God"...WHAT???? I felt he was confirming to me that it was him!!! It was probably one of the best sermons I heard in awhile and would HIGHLY encourage you to look up the message on their website! Then I went to church at Crosspoint today and it was about trusting in God! I then went to spend quiet time with God this afternoon and was in my Jesus calling devotional and something told me to reread yesterday's message and it was about listening for God's voice and How the Lord loves to delight in revealing himself..WOW!!! I've attached a pic of it so you can read it in case you don't have that devotional..God is soooooo GREAT!!!! I even shared it with my husband and he recieved it well without saying "WELL THAT"S NEVER GOING TO HAPPEN'...he's open to the idea and took it very humbly, which I appreaciate greatly. Please continue to pray as we have our interview with the new school April 24th to gain acceptance and for My husband to come back to Christ in his timing.

Upcoming Lunar Eclipse

I was reading today that we will have a lunar eclipse March 14th which is on the Jewish festival of Purim. What I didn't realize and what was revealed to me today was that we had a previous lunar eclipse last year in 2024 in March and we are expected to have another one in March in 2026...so over 3 years in March the 3rd month...Lunar eclipses in the past are significant and usually fall when there's a war..praying there are no wars but could be a sign that this is what could happen...I feel God uses a lof of things to get our attention and this is something we may need to pay attention to..no matter what happens I think it's important to keep our minds focused on God and not in the political arena..He's on his throne and in control of all things!!!